{"id":6423,"date":"2018-07-26T01:09:57","date_gmt":"2018-07-26T06:09:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/faithhopeandfiction.com\/content\/?p=6423"},"modified":"2020-09-04T04:55:04","modified_gmt":"2020-09-04T09:55:04","slug":"no-ordinary-time","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/faithhopeandfiction.com\/content\/no-ordinary-time\/","title":{"rendered":"No Ordinary Time"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"post-display-none\">\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/faithhopeandfiction.com\/content\/no-ordinary-time\/\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter wp-image-6426\" src=\"https:\/\/faithhopeandfiction.com\/content\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/07\/no-ordinary-time_essay_ken-chumbley.png\" alt=\"No Ordinary Time Essay by Kenneth L. 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Chumbley<\/a><\/h2>\n<h4 class=\"trailer\">Original Online Fiction<\/h4>\n<p><!--more--><\/p>\n<div class=\"text-indent-first\">\n<p><span class=\"dropcap dp-circle\" style=\"color:#ffffff; background-color:#444444\">I<\/span>t was two in the morning when the phone shook Francis from a deep sleep. \u201cMy mother&#8217;s dying,\u201d the woman said, sobbing. \u201cShe needs Last Rites\u2014now.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"text-indent\">\n<p>Francis whispered, not wanting to awaken his wife, Eleanor. He asked the caller for her mother\u2019s name and the hospital she was in and promised to be there soon.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat is it?\u201d Eleanor turned toward him and rubbed the sleep from her eyes.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSomeone&#8217;s dying,\u201d he said. \u201cI have to see her. Go back to sleep. You need your rest.\u201d She had a classroom of second graders to teach in the morning.<\/p>\n<p>Francis changed from his pajamas into a wrinkled gray suit and faded black shirt. He put on his white clergy collar. He drove to the hospital in his ten-year-old Taurus, its doors and fenders patchy with brown rust from too many winters of road salt. An early March snow slanted across the car&#8217;s headlights. Rolling down the window, he hoped the cold air would slap him into full wakefulness. He gripped the steering wheel and followed a snowplow up Main Street.<\/p>\n<p>By nature he was a quiet, introspective person. At the moment, though, he felt irritated, even resentful, for being roused from his warm bed beside his wife. Francis caught himself; he was a priest, after all, and had been one for fifteen years. And human\u2014a clergy collar did not make him otherwise. He remembered something his college chaplain had told him many years earlier when he was sensing a call to the priesthood of the Episcopal Church. \u201cUnless you\u2019re willing to help someone in need, whatever the hour, then don\u2019t become a priest. Do something else.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He did. After college and newly married, Francis took a job as a newspaper reporter for his hometown paper, <em>The Courier-Journal<\/em>. He liked reporting, worked hard, advanced from beat to beat, and eventually ended up writing editorials. Then he and Eleanor got involved in church, and the call resurfaced. A few years later, at the age of 37, he went to seminary in New York City; three years after that, he graduated with his master&#8217;s in divinity and was ordained. He served his first parish back in Louisville. Two years later, Good Shepherd Episcopal Church in Binghamton, New York, called him to be its rector. That was ten years ago.<\/p>\n<p>Francis reached the hospital, parked the car, and trudged to the Emergency Room entrance, the only one open at this hour. The snow felt good on his face; it crunched beneath his boots. His breath froze in clouds.<\/p>\n<p>He felt alive.<\/p>\n<p>Francis asked the nurse at the desk for the room number of Mildred Giacometti.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAre you family?\u201d she asked.<\/p>\n<p>Francis shook his head no, then unbuttoned his topcoat, showing his clerical collar like a police officer flashing his badge.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOh sorry, Father. Go right on up. Room 408.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Francis found the room: bare and dim, except for a yellow glow from a light over the sink. Medical technology surrounded the dying woman, blinking, beeping, pumping artificial life into her. Her skin was tattooed with black and red splotches. He recoiled internally.<\/p>\n<p>The sleeping form of a man slumped in a chair, snoring. A woman sat at the bedside, her gray hair wound into a long braid and her face creviced with worry. \u201cWhat took you so long?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI came as soon as I could,\u201d he explained, trying not to sound annoyed. \u201cThe snow is heavy.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI wouldn&#8217;t know. I haven&#8217;t been outside in two days.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;m sorry. This has to be hard for you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIt&#8217;s hell.\u201d She relaxed slightly. \u201cI&#8217;m Carol, her daughter.\u201d She began to sob, wiping her eyes with the sleeve of her blouse. \u201cThat&#8217;s my husband, Jerry, over there\u2014sleeping like nothing&#8217;s happening.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHow\u2019s she doing?\u201d Francis asked.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDying.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Of course, Francis chided himself. What a stupid question to ask.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter wp-image-5712\" src=\"https:\/\/faithhopeandfiction.com\/content\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/free-online-fiction-poetry-art-150x150.png\" alt=\"No Ordinary Time \u2013 Essay by Kenneth L. Chumbley\" width=\"125\" height=\"94\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Francis wrapped his white stole around his neck. He touched the patient&#8217;s face. Her skin was cool and moist, thin to the point of translucence, revealing a spider web of capillaries.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHello, Mildred,\u201d he whispered. \u201cIt\u2019s Father Francis from Good Shepherd. I&#8217;m going to anoint you and pray for you. Carol is here\u2014and Jerry, too.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOh, Mama,\u201d Carol said, crying as she stroked Mildred&#8217;s cheek. She leaned closer to her mother. \u201cI love you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWould you like to lay your hands on her with me?\u201d Francis asked them. Tentatively, they pressed their hands to Mildred&#8217;s head and shoulders. Francis opened his prayer book. Touching the woman&#8217;s head, he prayed and then made the sign of the cross on her forehead with the holy oil used for healing and Last Rites.<\/p>\n<p>They stood in silence. Mildred\u2019s breathing was labored, long pauses punctuating each breath.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWould you like me to wait with you?\u201d Francis asked. \u201cUntil\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo,\u201d Carol said firmly. \u201cYou&#8217;ve done what Mama needed. She&#8217;s in God&#8217;s hands now.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Francis nodded. \u201cGod made her. And he&#8217;s with her now and always.\u201d He extended his hand to Carol. She hesitated, then took it reluctantly.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou let her down\u2014after Daddy&#8217;s funeral. You don&#8217;t remember?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo, I&#8217;m sorry. What did I do\u2014or not do?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAt the cemetery, you said you&#8217;d visit her, but you never did. You failed her.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cCarol,\u201d Jerry said, shaking his head. He turned to Francis. \u201cPadre, I\u2019m sorry. She&#8217;s upset.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Francis had a vague memory now of Mildred\u2019s husband who died two years earlier from a heart attack. He probably said he\u2019d check on her; that sounded like him. But as he recalled more clearly now, there had been another death, and he rushed to console that family.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;m sorry,\u201d Francis said to Carol. It was the only thing he could say. He had learned that lesson a long time ago in his final year of seminary when he was doing his clinical pastoral education at a hospital in New York. The chaplain had given him invaluable advice: \u201cAll that emotion, it\u2019s not about you. It\u2019s about them. You&#8217;re in a privileged position, even a sacred one, seeing them at their worst but also at the point of their greatest need.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Now, ten years later, Francis looked at Carol and Mildred, as white as the sheet she was wrapped in. He drew in a deep breath of calmness. <em>This is about her. Her grief. I\u2019m here for her now. <\/em>\u201cI\u2019m sorry for not visiting your mother,\u201d he said. \u201cYou have every reason to be disappointed. I&#8217;d be, too. Thank you for telling me how you&#8217;re feeling. Again, I&#8217;m sorry. I&#8217;ll check back in the morning. Shall I?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes, please,\u201d Carol said.<\/p>\n<p>He returned home and to bed. As he lay there beside Eleanor, listening to her breathing, he felt troubled for having failed someone who counted on him. He prayed, asking God to have mercy on him. Finally, he fell asleep until the sun came up, glinting on a new layer of snow.<\/p>\n<p>Carol called him at seven that morning, just as he was leaving for the hospital. Mildred had died a few hours earlier. \u201cI feel relieved. She&#8217;s no longer suffering,\u201d Carol told him. \u201cShe&#8217;s in a better place now. Thank you for coming last night. I&#8217;m sorry I was angry with you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Francis assured her she had nothing to apologize for. He was glad she\u2019d been honest with him about her feelings and hoped they could make a new start.<\/p>\n<p>That afternoon, Francis visited with Carol over tea and carrot cake at her house and planned the funeral. The next day she and Jerry were in church.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter wp-image-5712\" src=\"https:\/\/faithhopeandfiction.com\/content\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/free-online-fiction-poetry-art-150x150.png\" alt=\"No Ordinary Time \u2013 Essay by Kenneth L. Chumbley\" width=\"125\" height=\"94\" \/><\/p>\n<p>A few weeks later, Francis&#8217;s mother called him. She said she didn\u2019t want to worry him, which was why she hadn\u2019t said anything earlier. But his father had gone to the doctor, then to a specialist for tests. The results were back. \u201cLung cancer\u2014stage four.\u201d She began to cry. \u201cI knew it. He had that cough that wouldn\u2019t go away. I kept asking him to see the doctor, but he told me to stop nagging him. Finally, he went. Now he\u2019s dying.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Francis felt helpless. They were hundreds of miles apart. \u201cI\u2019ll come for a visit, as soon as I can.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHe\u2019s getting treatment. It won\u2019t cure him\u2014the cancer\u2019s too far along for that. But it might slow it down. Give him some more time. Help his breathing some. Sometimes, I think he&#8217;s going to suffocate at any minute.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Francis promised to check back soon. He hung up the phone and sat in his study. He&#8217;d dealt with dying and grieving people all the time, but now death was invading his own family. He started to cry.<\/p>\n<p>Taking a long walk that night, he cried out, \u201cGod, I don&#8217;t think I can take all this dying anymore. Maybe I&#8217;m not meant for this work after all.\u201d He fantasized about being a reporter again. He did not know what to do next. \u201cGod, help me,\u201d he prayed aloud.<\/p>\n<p>A few days later his bishop surprised him at church. \u201cHow about lunch? I&#8217;m buying.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>At the little Greek diner up the street, Francis picked at his Caesar salad.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHow are you doing?\u201d Bishop Alex Sherwood asked him.<\/p>\n<p>Francis looked at his eyes, which were blue and kind, like his own father&#8217;s. The bishop felt less like his superior and more like a friend. \u201cOne Sunday, I&#8217;m going to look out and see just empty pews,\u201d he said. \u201cI&#8217;ll have buried the whole congregation.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;ve felt similarly,\u201d Bishop Sherwood said. \u201cAnd I&#8217;ll assure you the whole congregation is <em>not <\/em>dying.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Francis took a deep breath. \u201cMy father has cancer.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know,\u201d Bishop Sherwood said. \u201cEleanor called me yesterday. I&#8217;m sorry about your father.\u201d The bishop patted Francis&#8217;s hand.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI feel as if I am drowning in a sea of sadness,\u201d Francis said.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know you feel these loses deeply,\u201d Bishop Sherwood said. \u201cAnd that&#8217;s because you&#8217;re a good pastor. You care for your people. And they know it. You&#8217;re a man of the heart. Such people are rare, even among priests\u2014and among bishops, for that matter. Don\u2019t keep these feelings inside. Tell God in prayer. Tell Eleanor\u2014it\u2019ll bring the two of you closer. And tell your lay leaders. Ask others to help you carry this burden. It&#8217;s bigger than one person.\u201d<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter wp-image-5712\" src=\"https:\/\/faithhopeandfiction.com\/content\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/free-online-fiction-poetry-art-150x150.png\" alt=\"No Ordinary Time \u2013 Essay by Kenneth L. Chumbley\" width=\"125\" height=\"94\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Several months later, Francis and Eleanor had just finished their bedtime reading and had turned off the lights. They held one another. He felt loved and secure. Then the phone rang.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cFran,\u201d his mother said. \u201cI don\u2019t think your father has long.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cJesus,\u201d Francis said, more prayer than oath. When he\u2019d seen his father a couple of weeks ago, he\u2019d been weak, but Francis hadn\u2019t expected him to decline so quickly.<\/p>\n<p>Eleanor reached for Francis, putting her arm around his shoulder as he held the phone.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIs he up to talking?\u201d Francis asked.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHearing your voice will give him a boost.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHi, Pop. I love you,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n<p>Emotions rushed at him: fear, sadness, helplessness, disappointment with God, who had not answered his prayers with a miracle. Tears poured out.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cLove you, too, son,\u201d his father said weakly.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019ll be home soon. I&#8217;ll get the first flight out tomorrow.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIt\u2019s okay,\u201d his father said, struggling. \u201cI\u2019m not afraid of death. There are worse things than cancer.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Francis knew the truth of that statement. He\u2019d found his father\u2019s wartime journals in the attic and read them. A D-Day survivor, his father had seen plenty of death on Omaha Beach.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSee you soon, Pop,\u201d Francis promised, but realized this conversation might be their last in this world.<\/p>\n<p>Francis leaned into Eleanor. She opened her arms and told him that she loved him, that she was there for him, that the two of them would survive this together.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;m sorry,\u201d he stammered. \u201cI know I&#8217;ve been preoccupied. Sometimes when we\u2019re together, I\u2019m somewhere else. I\u2019m thinking about a sermon or dealing with a death or some crisis. And now that Pop\u2019s dying, I can\u2019t think of anything else. I\u2019m afraid of losing him\u2014or losing you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;m right here, Fran,\u201d Eleanor said softly. \u201cJust cry it out. Don&#8217;t hold it in. Let it out.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He awoke the next morning in her arms. On the drive to the airport, he contemplated burying someone he loved; the thought terrified him. At the curbside drop-off, Francis held Eleanor tightly, smelling the perfume he had bought her at the Galleries LaFayette in Paris. They had celebrated their twenty-fifth wedding anniversary in the City of Lights.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou better get to your gate,\u201d she told him. \u201cI love you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He arrived in Louisville in the afternoon and drove his rental car to the ranch house in the South End where he had grown up.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHe\u2019s sleeping,\u201d his mother said at the door. He kissed her cheek and held her for a moment. \u201cThe hospice nurse just gave him something for the pain to make him more comfortable.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>His father lay in bed, covered by a blue blanket. He gasped for each breath, the pauses between each lengthening. A hint of ammonia hung in the air\u2014the odor of death.<\/p>\n<p>Francis sat down beside the bed and stroked his father&#8217;s forehead and cheek, cool and moist. He leaned over and whispered, \u201cIt\u2019s me, Pop. I\u2019m home. I love you.\u201d He hoped his father would open his eyes and say, \u201cI love you,\u201d but all he heard was the death rattle of his lungs.<\/p>\n<p>His mother brought him a plate with a ham on rye sandwich. \u201cWith extra pickles,\u201d she said. \u201cJust the way you like.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Francis set the sandwich aside. His mother lingered in the doorway, looking ten years older than she did just a few weeks earlier when he had visited.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;ll let you two have some time together,\u201d she said. \u201cI&#8217;m going to lie down in the living room. Call me if you need me.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Francis picked up his father&#8217;s Bible and read the 23rd Psalm aloud. Then he lay down beside him, resting his head on his father&#8217;s chest. He listened to the heart&#8217;s thump and the gurgled breath.<\/p>\n<p>As he followed the rise and fall of his father&#8217;s chest, he thought he smelled Old Spice aftershave. The scent unlocked the vault of memory: <em>Francis stands at the bathroom sink beside his father. He studies his father as he wipes the last traces of shaving cream from his face. His father picks up his shaving brush and dollops the foamy cream on Francis\u2019s chin. \u201cYou\u2019ll do this with your son one of these days.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Francis and Eleanor always wanted children but contented themselves with being family for each other. Now he was the son, a grown man, but unwilling to let go of his father. He wanted to keep him here but knew that would only mean more suffering. He prayed and visualized letting his father slip into the sky, pure spirit set free.<\/p>\n<p>His father gasped, and his chest went still. Francis waited for the next breath, but there was only silence. His father&#8217;s mouth gaped open, the gurgles quieted now. He leaned over and kissed his father&#8217;s stubbled cheek.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMother,\u201d Francis called out and went into the hallway, calling her once more, before returning to his father\u2019 bedside.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter wp-image-5712\" src=\"https:\/\/faithhopeandfiction.com\/content\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/free-online-fiction-poetry-art-150x150.png\" alt=\"No Ordinary Time \u2013 Essay by Kenneth L. Chumbley\" width=\"125\" height=\"94\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Eleanor came for the funeral and offered to stay on in Louisville. \u201cI&#8217;ll be with you here as long as you want,\u201d she told Francis, squeezing his hand. \u201cI love you and want to support you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI really appreciate your offer, Ellie,\u201d he said. \u201cI&#8217;ll be okay. I need to spend some time with Mother. Just the two of us. I hope you understand.\u201d He also knew how difficult it was for her to be away from the classroom. He hugged her. \u201cI appreciate you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Francis spent a few more days with his mother, and when the visit came to an end worried about how she would cope. His mother had never been one for sharing her feelings; his father had been the source of emotional warmth in the family. He could see the imprint of his mother on his personality.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019ll be all right, son,\u201d she said at the doorway as he left for the airport. \u201cCall me when you land.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;ll be back to check on you,\u201d Francis promised. \u201cCall me if you need me. When you do, I&#8217;ll get the first flight out.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDon\u2019t worry about me. You\u2019ve got a church to take care of.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Back home, Francis was quickly swept up in the swift currents of congregational life. When members of his parish asked how he was doing, he thanked them for their kindness, but assured them he was fine.<\/p>\n<p>One morning, Bishop Sherwood phoned. \u201cI\u2019m grieving appropriately,\u201d Francis reported, pleased with how he was handling his feelings, not letting them get in the way of his job. Francis thanked the bishop for the call, ending their conversation quickly before it went any deeper.<\/p>\n<p>Most days, he left the parish office at noon and went home for lunch. The house was empty with Eleanor at school. He ate a bowl of tomato soup, drank a glass or two of burgundy, and fell into bed.<\/p>\n<p>Late one afternoon, Eleanor came home from school and found him asleep. \u201cI&#8217;m worried about you,\u201d she said. \u201cYou&#8217;re more tired than usual. And you&#8217;re irritable. It&#8217;s been going on for awhile now. Won&#8217;t you go see someone\u2014please? I&#8217;ll go with you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;ll be fine,\u201d Francis said. \u201cDon&#8217;t worry about me. I&#8217;m fine. Good Shepherd is a busy parish. That&#8217;s all.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Eleanor sat on the edge of the bed. \u201cNo, something is different. It&#8217;s more than being overworked.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don&#8217;t mean to be difficult,\u201d Francis said, trying not to sound annoyed. \u201cI appreciate your concern. Tell you what\u2014I&#8217;ll think about talking with someone.\u201d He went to his office at church to work on his Sunday sermon.<\/p>\n<p>During the day, he kept busy, and at bedtime, after a melatonin or two, he fell asleep. Night after night, he dreamed that he and his mother stood in a dark, musty room like a cellar, looking into a casket. Inside lay his father&#8217;s body; then, another body took his place. <em>I can&#8217;t be dead<\/em>, Francis shouted in the dream. <em>No, it&#8217;s not possible. <\/em>He awoke shouting. &#8220;No. No. No\u2026.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Each time he had the dream, Eleanor took him into her arms until he fell asleep. The next morning, he was exhausted.<\/p>\n<p>Finally, he gave in to Eleanor&#8217;s pleas and went to see his general practitioner. Dr. Harris listened as Francis explained that his wife had insisted he come in. \u201cShe says I\u2019m not myself, that I seem tired and cranky.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIs she right? Wives can be pretty perceptive,\u201d Dr. Harris said.<\/p>\n<p>Francis studied his hands, picked at a hangnail. He admitted to having a pain in his stomach for more than a week and diarrhea.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIt could be stress,\u201d Dr. Harris said. \u201cMaybe a flare up of your irritable bowel? You&#8217;ve got a tough job, after all. All those people to deal with, their personalities, and their problems.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThis will probably sound crazy,\u201d Francis said. \u201cBut I keep thinking that maybe I&#8217;m dying. It&#8217;s worrying me and has been ever since\u2014\u201d He paused. \u201cMy father died, a month ago. He had lung cancer. I keep thinking about him. Being with him at the end and seeing him in the casket. Missing him\u2014knowing that he&#8217;s never coming back.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>After examining him, Dr. Harris assured Francis he was not dying. He was grieving. \u201cI&#8217;m no psychiatrist, but it seems you\u2019re repressing your feelings, pushing them down into your gut. And they&#8217;re letting you know they&#8217;re there. And they don&#8217;t intend to say there, silent.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou might be right,\u201d Francis admitted.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cPeople grieve in their own way. And it takes time to come to terms with the loss. I&#8217;m sure you&#8217;ve told people the same thing. If you want, I can prescribe something to help.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI think I\u2019ll be okay,\u201d Francis said. \u201cI feel better, just talking to you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>His conversation with Dr. Harris soon faded as he turned his attention to other matters. He had a vestry meeting to get ready for on Tuesday night. He dreaded it: some members wanted cuts to the budget because pledge income was down. Francis wanted\u2014needed\u2014more funding, not less for the church to operate.<\/p>\n<p>A storm hit on Wednesday afternoon, downing a tree on the church&#8217;s playground and stripping a swath of shingles from the church roof. Now, water leaked into the church and pooled near the altar. He was on the phone for hours, trying to find a roofer to make repairs and someone to remove the tree. He had not even looked at the readings for his Sunday sermon.<\/p>\n<p>Overwhelmed, Francis wanted to cry, but he was out of tears.<\/p>\n<p>On Sunday morning, he wished he could be anywhere other than Good Shepherd. At the 8 o\u2019clock service, he felt as if he were watching himself conduct it, not actually leading the familiar prayers and rituals. When he preached, he droned the words of his homily. Mercifully, it was short.<\/p>\n<p>The 10 o\u2019clock service would be better, Francis hoped. At least it wasn\u2019t Lent or Easter, Advent or Christmas\u2014those times of extra prayers and special music. It was a typical sleepy Sunday, what the Church called \u201cOrdinary Time.\u201d But for him, after his father\u2019s death, it was no ordinary time.<\/p>\n<p>At the second service, Francis lost his focus a few times while leading the prayers. Thoughts of his father distracted him. He saw his father in the casket, then saw himself at the cemetery as the casket was lowered into the ground. His father was gone. He would never see him again. Francis felt a sharp stab of sadness in his chest right where his heart was.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019m sorry,\u201d Francis said from the pulpit. \u201cI don&#8217;t think I can go on. It&#8217;s my father, you see. I think about him; it\u2019s all I can do. It\u2019s as if part of me is missing, and all I have is this big emptiness inside me.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Francis began to weep, crying for his father and also for all the people he had buried over the years. There had been so much death. Too much for one man, no matter how good he tried to be as a person and a priest. All the grief of those many months and years fell from Francis &#8216;s eyes and onto hardwood floors of the church.<\/p>\n<p>Something shifted. Lightness rolled away the stone of his sadness, the way dawn drives out the night. It was love, Francis knew: his father\u2019s love for him, and his for his father. He looked up at the congregation, smiling through his tears. \u201cI feel it here.\u201d He put his hand on his heart. \u201cLove never dies.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Eleanor was the first one out of her pew. She took Francis in her arms and kissed him. Carol and Jerry, who\u2019d been coming to church every Sunday since Carol\u2019s mother\u2019s funeral, followed. One by one, the others in the church left their pews and encircled Francis. It was a day of resurrection, a day of new life.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter wp-image-5712\" src=\"https:\/\/faithhopeandfiction.com\/content\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/free-online-fiction-poetry-art-150x150.png\" alt=\"No Ordinary Time \u2013 Essay by Kenneth L. Chumbley\" width=\"125\" height=\"94\" \/><div class=\"hdivider hr-double hr-long\"><\/div><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<p><strong>Kenneth L. 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